Good morning! Today’s 1st kratom dose is….
2 teaspoons of White Maeng Da and 2 teaspoons of Green Maeng Da kratom.
Even after a solid night’s sleep, I’m still bothered by that conversation I had yesterday afternoon. It was affecting me when I went to bed last night… Joe was saying good night to me and was standing close to the side of my bed while I had just paused a show on Netflix (Grace And Frankie) and was picking out a project to work on while I settled down to go to sleep (yes, knitting/crocheting is an integral part of that process) and for some reason, I felt so…. crowded, irritated and trapped at that moment. It wasn’t Joe’s fault, it was because of that conversation I had earlier that’s even now, still affecting me. I didn’t tell him that I was feeling all that, only that I just wanted to go to sleep so he left me alone.
I can’t tell what bothers me more, that that guy had no idea that I was feeling so uncomfortable while talking with him or that he seemed so intent on keeping the conversation going, even when Joe’s Mom was talking to me when she came out of the doctor’s office.
I really need to work hard to put this behind me once and for all. I need to just move on from this because this is taking up far too much of my time and more importantly, my limited energy. But, on the other hand, by writing this all out, I’m processing it mentally and emotionally and that’s a good thing. I’m one of those people who blow things off and breeze past them and never allow myself to process the negative things in my life and then, down the line when things like that happen again, I don’t know how to deal with them and I end up floundering around, looking stupid and awkward because I’m processing twice what I would have had to process so… lesson learned, process the bad stuff when it happens.
Stay tuned…